Inside this Mommy's head

Life with the little's in my house is crazy, boring, tiring, silly, fun, adorable, exhausting, and happy.  Today I just wanted to put some thoughts down about what I will miss about having tiny people in my house.  There are so many times when I have thoughts of grandeur about how my walls won't be so messy from little hand-prints, I won't be getting thrown up on anymore, etc. in the future when my kids grow up just a little bit more.  It seems that sometimes I get caught up in how much better or easier things will be when my kids are older that I don't take the time to think about all that I will miss when my childbearing days are done.  So at least for today I want to be grateful for healthy and happy children and acknowledge all that I will miss.

I will miss....
the smell of a newborn
soft as silk newborn hair
soft baby skin
cute little tiny fingers and toes
pinching little cheeks
seeing their joy and sometimes fear during all their firsts
little squeals of laughter (seriously can someone just record baby laughter and sell it to me?)
my kids always wanting to be with and play with me
rocking children to sleep
the pure love of a baby (they are always happy to see me and don't care whatsoever I look like, how much I weigh, they don't judge me, they just love)
baby snuggles
the way they pronounce and mispronounce certain words
tiny shoes
unsteady walking and falling down
seeing them eat for the first time
seeing them crawl and walk for the first time
their first day of school
the fact that all it takes to make them happy is a hug and a treat
being the tooth fairy
being Santa
being able to control most of their choices
having them ask me the "why" of things
having them believe almost everything I tell them
"knowing everything"
making cookies and cakes with them
reading with them
seeing them learn to write their name
exploring outside with them
having them never question if God exists
little toothless smiles as well as just some baby teeth smiles
dressing them in tiny clothes that are so cute
dressing them how I want them to be dressed
their laughter at things that really aren't that funny
listening to the jokes they make up that make no sense
coloring with them
doing crafts with them
finding random things in random places...cell phone in a freezer...sim card in the back of a clock
having all of their time and attention
teaching them new things
playing peek-a-boo
feeling them kick inside me
seeing them play in the snow
being there for everything
watching them play make believe
seeing my kids interact with each other
seeing my husband playing with the kids
the fact that I can make them happy by giving them a pacifier
messy faces
watching them dig in the dirt for hours
swimming with them
baby babbles
milk drunk faces
seeing them sleep so peacefully
simplicity of life
tiny baby tip-toes
hearing them pray


There are some things that I don't think I could ever really miss but these I know I will. 

Happy 1st Birthday Aurelia!

Happy 1st birthday to our baby girl!  I can't believe that one whole year has already gone by! Each day at the beginning goes so slowly and then keeps going faster and faster.  Aurelia has been such a good baby!  Besides being fussy when she had RSV and an ear infection at 6 weeks she has seriously been so amazing.  She has such a calming presence and is so chill which is amazing with Braxton and Carston always being full of energy and craziness (which I also love).

  She is always ready with a sweet baby smile and a snuggle. Braxton and Carston were never that snuggly so I extra enjoy this. She was walking at 10 months and is a FAST walker.  When that girl wants to get somewhere she does.  She loves being outside, playing with whatever her brothers are playing with, pulling bows off of her head, playing with other friends, and not being strapped down.  She wasn't a huge fan of her cake (that I worked for quite some time on) but ate a little.  She has 6 teeth and is still waking up once a night....sleep training is forthcoming.  She babbles all the time and Carston asked,  "Why Aurelia talk so much?".  She likes climbing and is learning how to safely get down from things right now.  She is already pulling chairs over to things to get into them. We are in the process of weaning her.  I took way too many pictures of her but I seriously can't get enough! I always want to remember the swirl of her soft baby hair, her tiny tip-toes reaching for things, her smile, and the beauty and wonder she sees in everything around her. We are so grateful for the joy this girl has brought to our family and I am also grateful to not be so outnumbered and have someone to share girly things with.  Happy birthday baby girl!!!!!!!!!